On November 17th I ordered one of those all-natural quit smoking programs that I've heard about on the radio. They start by talking about it being free if it doesn't work for you. I called the 1-800 number they gave and had to answer numerous questions about my smoking history. How long? How old now? Why? Why? Ever tried before? Why now? All the things that you would expect to have asked. The woman on the other end of the line kept me on hold and came back with an approval, that I qualified for the program.
When I made the call I was very, very motivated and looked forward to the program that would arrive soon. Well, I'm still waiting.
I made a follow-up call this past week after it had been almost two weeks and my program hadn't arrived. All the while my motivation was waning. I learned in the past that when the mood strikes to quit, you have to jump at it. I made another call today and all my necessary products were shipped yesterday. And yesterday I took a bigt step on my own. Everyday since the initial phone call I've gone to the store and bought a pack of cigarettes. But yesterday was different. I went into the store and as I was standing in line at the cash register, I made a huge decision. I'm not going to do this anymore!! No more! I've had enough. I bought a coffee and left the store without cigarettes. I vowed then and there that I would finish up all that I had on hand by midnight and then no more.
So right now, I can tell you that once again I've gone 24 hours without a cigarette. It's not been a bad day. A jittery one. I've done a lot of praying, a lot of pacing, and a lot of gum chewing. John at church has said several times in recent weeks that it takes 3 weeks, just 21 days, to break a habit. Jessica has also told me that accountability helps in achieving goals and making changes.
So here it is. The end of Day One. I'm doing a lot of praying for myself. Will you help me out and pray for me. This isn't easy. It's very scarey. If there was a rehab clinic for smokers, I'd check myself in. I've done this before but only for short periods. I need to do it, I must do it, NOW!